Fireflies..

昨天遇到升学朋友...聊了一会儿...
问起上周末的升学之旅如何？
她回答：不错哦！看到萤火虫......还蛮好玩滴！
为虾米... ...我始终还是错过了第二次的升学旅...因为赶thesis的关系...—_—、
除了用遗憾两字形容，没有别的形容词了...
我很想很努力的制造拥有对升学的回忆... ...但不可能了！
错过波德申已是后悔，现在的萤火虫虫也没机会了...抱有遗憾...
搬出去后好久好久没参与博升了，会议，旅行，例常... ...一切一切...
唯一回忆依然停留在去年胎死腹中的营会的准备期间...算了！！
那段应该是快乐的时候！！
现在的我，课业的忙碌，像我这样的人已经不能承受...
唉... ...唉... ...唉... ... 叹气也不知为了什么，可能是太久没有好好放松...^(oo)^

博升与我

今天下午，第一次出席学会的例常活动...(是因为有在学校里)
我发现好久没碰见大家了...真的好久...最后一次应该是上学期了吧!(是校园太大吗？呵呵)
但今天也只见了四个...好惨！现在活动越来越少学长出席了，最勤劳的莫非那三个了！
哈，就这样围起来谈近况，谈八卦! 只是靠他们爆料给我听听学员近况...呵呵! 我们这batch的学员们也真的很少互动...可说越来越疏远了...我这才知道我真得很久没混博升了!
为何人家搞活动，团员关系是如此密切，我却感受不到...真的不知道...
但至少，若拜五有在校园(今天是第一次)，我还会有冲动要见见朋友...因为不去碰他们，恐怕这学期结束了，还不会见到面...
也听说这一届学弟妹不办中秋活动了，有那么一点点讶异和遗憾...回想起去年这个时候的中秋，是我第一次参与博升的中秋会，与一大班人度过，也恐怕是最后一次了...会有感触吗？那时已变成我的回忆了...
别了啦，博升...我逐渐与着社团距离越远了...剩的只有仅仅的一丝回忆...

Reunion Night!

今天是博升团圆饭之夜！是我第一次参与他们吃团圆饭，有小瓜、中瓜、和老瓜…
聚集地就在SK那里的一间饭店…
当晚我们就有两桌，菜色很丰富哦！！
第一道就先来个捞生！步步高升嘛！再来就陆续有至少六样菜…junior把每样菜都拍照留念…好有活力的一群…什么都可拍一通！
我们边吃边闹，好贪玩哦…还穿插些游戏，如吃柑比赛…junior手脚还真是快!
博升还分发自做的贺年片给全部人…不错哦！！有新年气氛！
后来，还开了几瓶sparkling juice，很搞笑的…原本以为摇后必定会爆开，全都躲得远远的…剩下拿着瓶子的可怜人..东成..一直说会爆开、爆开…结果一放手…
Cehhhh…根本没效果…给老瓜wuu了一餐…笑死人…隔壁桌的一班陌生人也好像等看戏酱…吃咋糊…
好啦，有得喝了…“饮胜”又不够老瓜大声…逊弊了…喝到一半，senior竟然把摇了的一瓶向我们开盖…结果，由于太突然了…每一个人都遭殃…手脚粘粘的…还喷到隔壁两桌陌生人…好可怕…我们的组长还需向他们赔不是…凄惨!
我原本已在家里梳洗到非常清洁才去的，因为不想在宿舍冲凉…真是人算不如天算…害我到十一点还需去冲凉洗头…气死我啦!
这餐团圆饭吃得还蛮开心的…不错啦…
这一次又成了我再一次对博升的回忆…希望明年又以老瓜身份一起吃团圆饭咯！！！

K17 n Medic Fac..damn beautiful

ohh..yesterday evening i went to UPM Medic Fac at luar kampus..a new built faculty especially for medic student..we went there just to get the buku panduan for our info..since i din go there b4,so i juz follow my fren laa..
waa..1st thing u saw the faculty is "walaoyeh"...so nice building and the kolej..where they stay..just like apartment..brand new..so unfair..we passby from kolej to walk into their fac..whoosh..whole way long..got tasik somemore..then got lift..how come be so nice..compare to main campus..ours...oh no..u dun1 to c one more time..theirs...juz walaoyeh..so nice..so beautiful..so big..
hehe..i just can c only laa..will have no chance to study in this course for the entire life..haha..
nice journey to K17...our new outside campus..so lucky for all medic students..sob sob**

新的开始．．．博升培训一日营

星期六（14-10-2006）
一大早就起来，梳洗完毕。。八点了，约好八点半委员集合。。所以慧姗要来载我咯。。哦，坐摩托拿着laptop不好受。。手酸！哈哈！去到senior家，只有女生已到。。其他不见踪影。。结果他们竟然跟junior同时间到，害我们写流程七手八脚！
开始破冰，感觉还好。。不太好玩的游戏。。接下来就进入一连串课程。。我这做记录的不好玩。。中间穿插软性课程，很搞笑。。与人沟通背对背画东西。。哈哈，真的不能和我partner沟通！画到很好笑 ^-^
午餐时间。。饭盒是为一选择！一看到鱼圆，即刻给人。。有了昨天教训还不学精！！但那饭真的不好吃。。是我挑食吗？？
接下来还有唱游，终于终于瓜瓜营的歌派上用场了！就每个人投入的跳舞玩乐！感觉蛮好，至少之前做的一系列活动现在从现眼前但很累，可能老了，骨头硬了！！ ^o^
课程让每个人都有点累了，快吸收不到。。紧迫凑密的流程也是逼不得已。。2 become 1 day…所以“总统与乞丐”的游戏让人比较放松！这很好笑又好玩！！
下午茶还有罗汉果糖水。。噢，好甜哦！比较喝不惯，但也好喝！加吃四方饼！！晚餐。。让人难以忘记。。一样是杂饭，一打开，晕掉。。只看到肥猪肉。。天！没肉，只是肥油。。如何吃！！！？全部讲到乱。。推到打理膳食组。。然而他们就推到老板身上。。哈哈！！结果，那餐，只有汁拌饭！！加个蛋！！好彩！最好笑，senior还说：“这是人吃的吗？这是人吃的吗？”很搞笑！！
还有跟senior分享也获益良多。。明白他们的苦心与坚持。。走到今天！
过后就看戏—“五个扑水的男孩”日本戏。。超级好笑，也带出些意义。。讲述男孩跳水上芭蕾。。一连串爆笑画面！！全场笑声连连！！ ^o^

a LoNg--LoNg dAy...yawn..

星期五(13-10-2006)
又到了例常天。。主题：辅导秘笈！的确吸引蛮多人。。照旧，例常后，打打自己的培训营广告，希望多人参与。。哪知道。。历史渐渐重演，结果只有二人。。天啊！多大的玩笑！筹备了的东西又再次要“冻过水”吗？两天一夜行不通，转换成一日营。。重新篇排，重新联络junior，这次，终于有些反应了，增至六个。。好彩咯！不然都不能run下去！结果，那天会议又再次开到五点。。加上还排舞。。每个人已忘了如何跳那首歌。。还亏我们之前跳了半个月！！整个活动是从中午12pm到5pm。。然后才有饭吃，午晚餐一起吃。。凄惨！
但我又很衰。。吃饭去拿到有鱼之类的食物，还以为会没事。。哪知道，二小时之后发作。。眼睛又开始肿了。。天啊！我还要负责复印小册子！一等又过了二小时，赶快冲去复印店，复印后工作开始，一本本割好订起来。。满足感还蛮大的！哈哈！！
一天就过去了，身心疲累。。但幸好改为培训一日营。。就比较好。。期待明天到来吧！！睡觉咯睡觉咯！！

mooncake festival at SS

oct 5~~ 1st time i celebrate "mooncake festival" with so many ppl la..with juniors n frens of "sheng xue"...1st time..quite happy la..v celebrate at a lake near sri serdang..just simple n nice..although no nice nice food..but got lantern and candles..haha..got the feel ok lah!!!play til almost midnite..quickly arrange them back kolej..of coz me oso need to back la!!
ahh..so many "1st time" for sheng xue..haha..at least not so wuliao lonely at mooncake day la!!
play some games to know juniors..although not many juniors..those games actually for the camp,n now..carry out to play at different situation..haha..dun wasted la..
another thing to be memorable in my uni life..good or bad?? ok la...dun expect much...

no feeling..

28-9-2006
Today, meeting for society again…feel like..haih..dunno how describe..
Being assign to do some role in the coming training…aii..ok lah..better than no contribute!!! Haha…lots of work coming again..just over exam, complete all assignment, now society paper work, oh god…the worst is I just got one month countdown from final exam..how to manage my time well?? Why I just feel that I was lack of fresh air…I shouldn’t be a last minute person…haha..repeat n repeat telling from dunno which semester..but still remain the same… how suay…alwaz do last minute work, studies… no wonder my exam sucks…last minute study till only sleep average 3 hours perday…wahh..the skin oso looks old n dull arr…how can I treat my 21st like that…die la die la…lots of vitamins and SKII oso cannot rescue lorr.. ^0^

累了，失去热诚的心．．

有时候真的觉得自己很没出息，什么都做不好总会怕这个怕那个。。
时常觉得自己不能胜任的，希望把一切越推越远。。不管我事更好！
就如那天，尝试做些没做过的事。。话很少，不太敢说，因为我真的不知要说什么！完全不曾接触的东西要我去传达，万一说错怎办！讲真的是有点不爽，但又能怎样？没人了，剩我。。
有时我不停在问自己，真的还想参嘛？为的是什么？只因为不想他们失去多一个吗？我存在的意义是什么？想等待些什么？要想得到什么？怕失去什么？
言归正传，传达完我的部分后，一切真的很模糊。。不知自己讲什么，好像傻婆！可悲。。再来是有件事，原本朋友打算让我带出另一个环节。。但我们却对那游戏不清楚。。便叫另一位帮忙咯。。但是，却变成另一种局面，他成了主持！我和我的拍档。。只好站一边咯。。好像陪衬的。。
我和另一个都觉得无所谓。。习惯就好。。我本来话就不多。。费事冷场啦！
哪知道，我的朋友迟进来，却问我跟他主持酱惨，只能靠边。。
哈哈，我没回他说，其实我和另一个才是今天主持。。他不是。。非常好笑。。
但也没多说什么。。每个人都知道那个人的个性。。
我不善于主持，我很清楚。。我想尝试，但也要遇到对的话题。。对一个我基本上不太认识的东西，要我表达。。真的很困难！我真的彻底失败，对吧！
我在于他们之间，他们会觉得我不多话，从不表达。。少主见。。我，算是酱的人吧！很少有主见，一切逆来顺受。。只因为对这社团模糊，觉得自己并没什么贡献！
好在。。我算蛮乐观的。不会为这些事烦躁。。从不会转牛角尖，弄得自己不开心！
一切听天由命吧，明年就摆脱了。。到时想参也没份了。。
哈哈。。总忍不足想了又想。。存在。。是为什么！！

why me!!!

that day when i meet with my society president..
he told me that the group that m in just left me alone..that means i gotta do all the work i never do befor..really stressful...i duno anything with it..they went for training before but not me!!! i just join them accidentally becoz of the camp...
actually really stressful..i duno how to start my work..some more is the most important group becoz i have to collect whatever latest news about shengxue..
yala..he say learn n do..n ask for others help..ask seniors..but the thing is i dunno where to start too!!!!!
m i too blur or i m trying to runaway from responsible....feel like very very unclear....suddenly from a 3 person group become alone...some more left the most dunno-person!!!!

成功的第一步

Yesterday(4-8-06)was my "shengxue" society 1st time activity..we wait for this day for ages..cuz is important for us to see whether we will have any juniors!!
Since our camp had certified dead..we put lotz of effort towards this 1st time activity..we start again from zero..haha..start promote again to juniors...pai mieh..
Finally..the day has come..it turn up to be quite successful..i'm glad for it..hooray!!
Around 15 junior attend... definitely a good kick-start for "shengxue"!!Better than NoNE!!
The game "卖升卖迎"..haha..was so interesting!! actually..that's the game we gonna played in the previous camp..but...
However,at least yesterday...the impact and response that junior gave during the game going on was fabulous..it's what we want and expected when we planned for d game!!!
No regret..at least is a right move for all of us!! (",)everyone is happy!!

things are unpredictable!!!

aizz..so down this days..my camp die..bcoz of no juniors join it..how sad..feel like what we have done for the past half month is wasted just like that..evone so sad abt this decision..but what can i do?? i duno express my feeling..quite regret !!
i nva think bout when i prepare for this camp in kantan court last month...the result is like that..one month later still at kantan court on 22/7--23/7!!! meeting at there..3days 2nite...
situation really uncontrollable...unpredictable..
1st time prepare camp....just die like this..one day before this baby will be delivered!!!!

Gua Gua Camp (",)

huh...one week passby...do some promote...but still no new juniors joining it...
help!!!who can teach me how to persuade??
there's a thing which is very true....if there's no new members joining our camp..no matter how excellent we had prepared half month ago....it's just rubbish!!!
ohh help!!lots lots of matter heading towards us...wat the h*ll they treat us like this...ask them to think twice..c properly before giving us problem!!!damn it....
make us hard to make a move....one more week left...can we hit our target????
god knows!!!pray hard for it!!!

July***

this july...2006...surely be a new experience for me in my life! i gona promote all the way for the camp...totally no personel time i think!!! what to do?? once i step in..got the responsibility to handle it..but still kia kia lehh..got to promote one by one to juniors...help me...talking skill is worse..to strangers..my heart "beep bop" beep bop"...scare laa...
i din do this kind of work before..!!!oh god...hope i can get some juniors laa!! if not thet wil kill me!!! promoting is not an easy job ....some more have to persuade a person to join it!!!
help me ar...i reaaly freakin out whenever i think about how to promote!!!
lots of worries too..................will that thing happen as what my frens say?? dun let me face this matter!!!freakkkkinnnnnn me out!!!

turning upside down!!

my life totally turns in this holidays..
starting from when the FIFA starts!!!
wake up in midnite n sleep in morning!!this situation continues..continues..wherever i was..
in my fren's house...almost all of us..sleep till almost 11am..surviving without breakfast for 2 weeks..straight away "branch"..or can v say lunch!!!at 12pm..then still c newspaper laa...then sembang sembang till 2-3 pm..then start work!!!
work till 7-8 pm...then dinner!!!!u see..2 meals in a day only!! lack of vitamins..keke!!
then after dinner..bath...hoho...after taking bath is almost 10pm...then start seriously in our work!!
this is our routine...hoho...midnite work!!!sometimes i quite blame them..in heart..why the h*ll we must start so late n cant finish it before football kickoff!!!!alwaz miss the 11pm matches..then only can saw half matches...
i reaaly regret missed the England last match!!nobody dare to go out..ah-head gonna lose temper..who the h*ll dare to take 1st move!!!!
v missed david beckham...got injured..neva saw him again in this FIFA...heart broken!!!
at last..england lost!!! =(

no title***

for the past 13 days...almost..i think..i learn something from the camp..
good news for myself..knew lots of frens..at least 12 of them..quite happy to work in a team..
but..m i still lost my way...???i cant figure out my way yet...
ok..everyday meeting..thay express their thoughts bout the society..i feel that i...i..still cant get it!! cant blame too..not familiar with the society!!
they knew too laa..din push me too hard to know all in a day!!!haha...me too lenang-lenang like that..hoho..
apart from meeting..v play n play n play..keke...but...in midnite!!!haha....we always start our things,planning,play games at nite...sing n dance...i always wonder why there's no people come n "shoot" us!!!haha....we stay at flat lehh..imagine the songs with speaker...we dance n scream when we lose the games!!!hahaha!!!memorable period in my life too!!
until now..i still wonder why my fren's neighbourhood so kind n generous?? can my frens still got face to live there???hahaha!!!

不同角度??

看到自己辛苦做出来的成果是否有一定的感动度及满足感呢??
不知别人如何,但我一定会有...
很累很累,但依然开心...
没什么大不了吗...
必然有人觉得..
但..
努力的成果...
感受得到...
超赞!
哈!

乱..失去方向

我在筹备营时学到不少东西,也看到每个人为这营付出很多,反而我还依然有点迷失自己,为何我还是没办法溶入里头呢?
其实加入这学会也是冒冒然...想学点不同的..但......还需要时间改进...
迷失自己的感觉不好受...我也该在这时候好好反省..改变自己..让自己往前踏出去...豁出去???
迷失..迷失..我要找寻属于我的出路!!

release...

today juz came back from fren's house..i stay there for 4 days ady...but felt like whole century..
few days just sit there n cut n paste,typing...so miss my home..got sofa,bed,tv...most important!!!football..
but why????hmm,but 1st time try to stay wif diff frenz...ok lah..if not ok,wat to do??haha
anyway..b bac around july..if can...luckily my camp din crash wif my buffday!!!yoyo!!!