Changing...

i always think of whether i'm suit for this job...
i always think of why i've chosen this field since studying dynasty...
i always think of what i've learn...
i can't find a reason...and an explanation...
is time for me to change my view...
really scared...
i need to think of how to suit myself in this job...
i need to think what can i apply from my studies in this job...
i need to think how can i improve myself...
and not finding some other excuses...
please...begging myself to change...
if not i will be very suffer...
i don't hope to hear that anymore...
guilty and shame...
juz want a happy and meaningful life...