suffer vs enjoy

I'm pouring out my money like water nowadays..
yet i have so many things to dream of~

why am I not controllable?
No..I didn't spend a lot..
Just while going out with frenz~

Money values are getting smaller and smaller..
That's why even though not buying much things..but the things are expensive..

I'm totally out of control in spending..
not a wise spender..
how can I achieve to get new phone..
really suay~~
enjoying a moment will in turn with a suffering month~
so..which is the choice I should pick..
to suffer before enjoy..
to enjoy then suffer..
no enjoy no suffer..
go enjoy while suffer..

This is call LIFE!! Faced the reality~~